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Tuesday 29 January 2013

Winter.

Its winter. I do not like it. Here in Canada you freeze your ass right off somedays. Heat is my best friend, I would rather summer than winter. One of my favorite things to do ever is to walk around during any time of the day in whatever I want to wear. Weither that is a hoodie and sweats, or shorts and a T-shirt. No winter boots, or winter jackets. Just never being cold, thats what I love.
 Today was a average exam week at school, at a freezing -42 celcius... Of course they didnt cancel because of exams, but it was still really cold just to walk to and from school. Enough to get me into a rant to my friends about how much I miss summer.
 My one friend turned to me and told me to stop wanting it to come so quickly. She enlightened me with a new viewpoint. She said to me this, "Every year, you get older. With each season that passes, you will inevitabley get older. We always say that we wish to be young again, but we always want certain times to come faster. Enjoy each season as it passes. You only ever get it once a year, and with each year you get older and then you want those years back. "
 Then I shut up.
No matter how much I want to walk around in the night wearing a light jacket, or learn to longboard, or even wiggle my toes in the sun baked sand; It will come eventually. All I have to do, is be patient.

Monday 7 January 2013

This is who you are.

Tonight, tomorrow, yesterday... Forever.

 "Don't be decieved by the hidden. They feel forgotten, scared, and hopeless. By forgetting the forgotten. They are permanatley gone. Not only in body, but in spirit and mind. Remembering the forgotten, makes someone with you in spirit and mind, though they may not be present in body. "

  Every single moment that surrounds you, becomes you. In every aspect. Every thought that passes., every sentence that dances off your tounge. There is an expedential amount of existence that creates who you are right now. Don't be decieved of the importance every single thing you do; It makes an impact on your life. Every single doubt, fight, regret, breakup, relationship, success, achievement, accident, gesture, every single thought. It compels you. Creates you. Every so often, we lose the reality, that connection. Lose it in ourselves, and sometimes in others. It only takes a instant to realize that its gone.. but nearly forever to get it back. Every single day, people think TODAY is the most you, that you can be.
They believe that who they are today, is who they are. Didn't you say that last week? Last month? Last year? Today, is you.
But yet, only a part of whom you are becoming. Many people believe your entire life is based on some framework such as a highway, or a staircase.
I disagree.
On a highway, or a staircase.. You know what lies ahead. More road.. more stairs. You can see it. Maybe not exactly where you may end up. But you know how your going to get there right?
...Wrong. 

 Picture this, standing on a path, with expidential details in every single step you took behind you, looking back, you see objects that represent your past, you feel, it touches your heart with nostalgia. But as you look ahead of you, there is nothing. Absolutley nothing. Each single step you take is into another guessing game. You can't pretict every aspect of your future, only plan the general framework of where you want to go. You can't choose what happens to you, or anyone else. By each action, you alter the future, and add to your past. This is what we forget.
We often get too caught up on certain details in the past, or things you WANT to happen in the future. You forget that today is your future. That right now, what you are doing, is what you will have been doing ten minutes ago. Not ten minutes ahead.
So tonight, this is who you think you are. Tomorrow, you will be more you. Yesterday, you thought you knew who you were. It is going to go on Forever.